Signs of Shifting Day 5

Today's sign we'll talk about is one I am NOT loving!

"Disrupted Sleep Patterns"

I have not slept well in a LONG time. I don't know if it's I'm dreaming more lucidly or if my insomnia is acting up or what...but it sucks!

I got a FitBit for Yule. I love that it tracks things like heart rate and sleep patterns. However, it also is teaching me that I get little/no deep or REM sleep. Those are the most important stages! I think maybe it's because my Third Eye is just so freaking open right now it's hard to control.

A friend did give me tips for closing my eyes for sleep. And I've been doing them. It has helped, but not as much as I had hoped. 

I don't wake up in the middle of the night, which is a good thing. That routine left me more tired than this routine. I am on medication for insomnia. Sometimes I wish I could get myself off of them. However, with my chronic fatigue I know it's not a good idea. 

So how about you? How have you been sleeping? If you haven't been getting quality sleep because of lucid dreaming or other aspects of your awakening, here are some tips that may help:

Meditate. There are some great guided meditations that are designed to get you to the sleep stage.

Hydrate. Be sure that your body is fully prepared for the sleep  cycle.

Journal. Write down thoughts that may be keeping you awake.

Yoga. There are some poses that can be done in bed.

Unplug! Some people need at least an hour away from screens before they can peacefully settle in bed.

Pray. Ask your guardians and guides to protect you during your sleep. Or use the mantra, "I get peaceful, healing sleep everyday," or one you come up with.

These are just a few thoughts that can help. I know I need to listen to my own advice on these. Take care of yourself. 

And Now, a Poem

 

Ah, my old mask

Worn and cracked from ears of use

Pieces chipped away from getting knocked around

Protector. Concealor. Cage.

You helped hide the hurt and the pain

Struggles of the deep

Too young did I find you

Hiding my true self from the world

Never allowing feelings to truly show

Keeping me from learning of 

Struggle, pain, hate, love

Each moment with you, piling on the weight

Of lies, deceit, heartache

Aiding me in hurting so many

While my soul lies in wait

Finally breaking free! A new life to create

One of joy and beauty, truth and love

Too long was I in prison, dear friend

Hide me no more!

Love of self flows freely, thankful for each moment.

Love Your Body

I have come to realize I have been ignoring my vessel. I have been so focused on my emotional, mental, and spiritual wellbeing and focusing on the fact that I am a soul having this human experience that I have forgotten to take care of my mode of transportation.

Recently, I have gained a considerable amount of weight for no real reason. I didn't much mind, since my soul and emotions were in a wonderful place. However, my body is like a car--it needs checkups, tune-ups, oil changes if I'm to keep traveling. 

This year, I need to focus more on that. I need to get my health in check. First up, I need to look within myself and figure out what road block I'm facing that keeps me from just doing what I need to do. I have a locked door that keeps me from the part of my brain that has the determination to move more and eat better. My hubby thinks I'm crazy because I don't eat a lot, yet I've gained all this weight.

So, I went to the doctor yesterday. I discussed my concerns. We did bloodwork. It all came back fine. My numbers are of no concern. Then what is causing all of this? My body is trying to get my attention, and I need to listen more carefully. We did adjust my medicines some to see if that helps. I do deal with quite a few health conditions. I do not "have" them--I do not claim them as my own or as part of me. 

To me, health issues are a part of my experience. I am supposed to learn something from each one. My insulin resistance, for example, makes me slow down. If I get up too fast I get light headed. So I have to be melodic and careful when I transition positions. There is the lesson.

I plan on taking accountability of my physical health this year. I don't see it as a resolution, but instead a lesson I must experience. I shall keep you updated on my lesson.

Signs of Shifting Day 4

The fourth sign of a spiritual shift is healing upgrades.

    "But what does that mean?"

Well, personally, I feel it means you start really feeling your body. You are in tuned with what your vessel needs. You recognize pains and aches and research if they have further meaning than just "ouch." For example, if I have a stomach ache, I know it can mean my Solar Plexus or Sacral Chakras need adjusting/tuning. 

Taking the time to sit with your body and really get into the mindset that it is your soul's travel vessel while you are in this human experience is a game changer! Try it out and let me know what you find :)

Signs of Spiritual Shifting Day 3

Day 3 brings us to this:

Flying and Floating

 Oh, to be a kid again! Going through my awakening process has brought up childhood memories of just that--floating!

I remember hiding behind my house with my cousin and our feet leaving the ground. We'd float all the time when we were together. It's a shame that the 3d experiences take that away from us. Every once in a while, I get the feeling again. I close my eyes and feel myself lift off the surface I'm on. I've never full-on flown, that I remember. But that sensation of floating has returned, and it feels so freeing.

So, meditate today. In your calm state, feel what it would be like to lift off the floor you're being supported by. Tell me, is it a feeling that feels like a memory?

Signs of Shifting Day Two

So today's sign of a shift in life is becoming sensitive to nature, noise, and energy. 

 For the past couple of years, this has become so true. I love being outside. I take the long way to classes just to walk outside more. I tell birds hello. I move animals that may be in harm's way. 

I HATE loud noises and crowds even more than I used to. I can also hear things from far away. I actually think I hear things far away better than close to me lately.  Some noises I sense the vibration from them. It's a strange feeling, but I'm learning to enjoy and embrace it.

Energy--Ohhh energy. I sense it everywhere and from everyone. I have to cleanse daily to remove any energy I may have picked up around me that I shouldn't have. I hear electricity moving. I have trouble concentrating when I'm around bad energy. 

So yes, this one for sure resonates with me. How does it resonate with you? Don't think it does? Go stand barefoot on the grass for a while and listen to the friends around you telling you hello.

Know Thyself Q&A

 

1. 1. Let's, together, learn a little more about me. I'd love to know your thoughts/answers

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3. What does your ideal day look like?

4. Wake up. Take time to stretch. Drink my coffee and eat my breakfast while scrolling on my phone. Meditate. Find articles or a book to read. Listen to music. Talk to my parents. Spend time with my love (and kids if they're around).

5. What did you want to be when you were younger?

6. I wanted to be a music teacher.

7. Who are you most inspired by? Why?

8. My daughter, hands down. She has known herself since such a young age. She is unapologetically her. She is brave and a beautiful soul through and through.

9. Who would you love to meet? What would you ask?

10. I love meeting people on their spiritual journey. I love hearing of their experiences.

11. What habit would you most like to break? What habit would you most like to start?

12. I want to stop being stagnant! I want to start moving more and watching what I eat.

13. Think of a person you truly admire. What qualities do you like about that person?

14. I admire people who are genuine. They are bold and stand up for what is right in life.

15. How do you like to relax?

16. Baths are my go-to. Listening to music and meditating

17. When was the last time you did something you were afraid of?

18. Putting our home for sale and ACTUALLY selling is pretty scary

19. What are you most proud of?

20. I am proud of the person I have become/am becoming. It took a long time it seems, but I am getting there!

21. What are you most afraid of?

22. I guess my biggest fear would be going back to who I was.

23. If life stopped today, what would you regret not doing?

24. I'd regret not texting my kids this morning

25. Who would you like to connect (or reconnect) with? Why?

26. I am all about connecting with like minded people. I won't say that I want to reconnect with anyone in particular--people come and go in life for reasons.

27. What qualities do you admire in others?

28. I admire people who are their authentic selves, be damned what others think. I also admire when people can own up to their mistakes. And I will always cheer on the underdog

29. What practical skills do you wish you had?

30. I wish I could sew. I think it'd be amazing to see a piece and be like, "I can make that"

31. Imagine you’re in your 90s. What memories would you like to have? What stories do you want to tell?

32. I sure hope I keep memories of times when my kids were young! I want to tell of my adventures in life--travelling, finding myself, and how I changed my life around when I met my husband.

33. What is your favorite book/movie/song? Why?

34. That's a hard one. Right now, I haven't been reading books. I have been reading more articles about awakening spiritually and how to heal yourself. My favorite movie to date is "The Greatest Showman." It is so inspiring to see people, once thought of as 'weird' become confident and love themselves. My favorite song right now is, "Slow Down" by Nahko and he Medicine for the People. I listen to it when life seems a bit too chaotic for me.

35. If you could make one change in the world, what would it be?

36. I would put more compassion into the world. Parents would love their kids no matter what. People would see others with love. Everyone would feel valid.

37. What do you love to do for, or give to others (not an object – something from you personally)?

38. I love energy healing. I love that people trust me with their energy. I love helping those that feel invisible or unworthy find their worth.

39. What excites you?

40. When someone, including myself, opens to a new 'aha' moment on reality. Or when a kid opens up to their parents and their parents embrace them.

41. What do you wish you did more of?

42. I wish I would help more. I have this desire to help kids around me, yet I honestly don't make the effort to find a way to really help. I wish I would move more. I wish I had the courage to overcome whatever block I have to just workout and eat right and get healthier.

43. Pretend money is no object. What would you do?

44. 1. Cruise around the world for a year.

45. 2. Buy a house in Minnesota and one some Caribbean island.

46. 3. Open a metaphysical shop in Minnesota.

47. 4. Buy a house for my son.

48. 5. Once she's where she wants to live in life, either fully pay for an apartment or house for my daughter.

49. 6. Start a support group for tween/teen LGBT+ kids nationwide in schools

50. What area of your life, right now, makes you feel the best? Which area makes you feel the worst? Why?

51. My spiritual awakening makes me feel the best! Opening my eyes to all of these new possibilities is so exciting!

52. My health makes me feel the worst. I know it isn't good, and I know most is my fault. I don't take care of myself. And, knowing my body is just a vessel, I've gotten worse about it instead of better.

53. Let’s jump forward a year. What would you like to have achieved in the past year?

54. This year, I WILL sell 50 Mala necklaces. I will book more healing sessions for others. I will join the gym and focus on my physical health more. I will move, whether it's just to a different home around here or to Minnesota. I will leave my job and find a job that I can love again.

55. What piece of advice would you give to five year old you? Sixteen year old you? Twenty-one year old you? Right now?

56. 5- Oh my dear, you do not have to people please. Be yourself. No matter what others say, the true you is SO important. Believe in magick--it IS real!

57. 16- Stop undervaluing yourself!!! What happened to you when you were 13 was NOT your fault. Do NOT let that one horrible even determine your worth. You don't need to hide behind a mask and lie and cheat your way through life. You are allowed to be your authentic self. Your parents will STILL LOVE YOU.

58. 21- Get your head out of your ass! Stop faking okayness. You are allowed to say when you're unhappy. You are allowed to walk away for your mental health. You are allowed to admit you have no clue what you're doing with a child and get help. Emotional abuse is STILL abuse.

59. Now (40)- Continue growing and moving forward. Keep doing the right thing, even if others don't like it. You are FINALLY on a good path, don't lose sight of that!

***Side note, that one hurt a bit***

1. How do you want to be remembered in life?

2. I want to be remembered as someone that grew throughout life. I want people to remember me as a good mother and wife. I want them to remember me as someone who helped and healed others.